out beyond the comfort zone
Incredible sunset & views from our room in Montepertuso, near Positano, Italy. September 2014.
When we decided to do this trip, one of my desires and needs was to throw myself out of a developing comfort zone. I was afraid that with my worsening vision and some stressful incidents that it would be too easy to fall into a hole of monotony and less personal growth. Expansion of myself is always something I’ve valued, but these days it’s harder to do it alone. I am more dependent upon others. More conscious of how I use my energy. Less hasty as result of past hurts. More private yet still a thriver on connection.
We’ve been in Italy for 6 weeks now (squeal!) and I am stretching myself in a glorious way. There have been tears once or twice, a bit of overthinking, clumsiness, absolute exhaustion but also elation, self-esteem-nurturing, pride, new experiences, adaptation, strong body and mind, proving myself wrong, and as always, gratitude. Beside me stands my husband who lifts me when I need it and cheers me on when I take metaphorical steps out into the unknown. Back in Australia we have a group of precious loved ones who support us fully. As we travel, we make more friends who also wish us well. What a lucky person I am.
I think of this blog often and how there is so much to share. But at the moment I can only think in small snippets each day. The greater dialogues will come in quietness and reflection. For now, I will ride this crest of stretching out. I wish you great personal growth friends.