thoughts & naps
Twice this week I have come to the bedroom to do something and have fallen onto the bed and into the deepest of naps. Apart from the fact that I’ve got a summer cold (ggrr!) it is the way this time of year should be, I think. Succumbing to our body’s need for rest in between the precious shared meals and walks with loved ones. Last night we had my in-laws over for dinner and then a leisurely stroll after. I collapsed on the bed afterwards facing upside down away from the pillows and sleep found me immediately. That heaviness of insurmountable tiredness feels wonderful when you can indulge it.
I’m also succumbing to thoughts about the online world at the moment. Seeking authenticity in people and blogs. People who never reply to comments. How much time is invested by many into online relationships that are quite fickle (not referring to any of you my friends). The cliques that despite my best efforts, I occasionally fall into the trap of trying to get acknowledgement from (even when I realise I don’t respect some of their attitudes). Hoping that twitter, instagram etc don’t kill the quality and community of blogging. The future of my humble online shop. Watching the monetising of blogs and the strategies that don’t align with my own ideals. Seeing others being swept up in trying to stay current on all the places, objects, fashions etc, fighting those pulls and thinking how exhausting it is. On being a private person and how much to share.
I’m NOT leaving this blog or taking a hiatus. I just have phases where I analyse my place, content and principles for this medium. It feels that so often I am resisting against the new norms or tidal waves of the latest social media craze. I do like this desire to be true to myself and seek simplicity and value – but it takes work internally to remain on your own two feet against these surges. Perhaps it is me who is the unusual one, questioning the value of everything in my life. But I feel that it is both freeing and necessary when living consciously and choosing where or how one’s energy is best directed.
And now, I think I will take another nap on this easy weekend morning. Got to shake this cold and let these thoughts simmer.