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a photography fear

11 September 2012

Remember my mind declutter project? It continues on even without structured intent. I have noticed that a fear is losing it’s grip on me and is fading into a dull thought at the back of my mind. I am no longer so scared of running out of photos for this blog or feeling an urgency to take as many photos. I am more focused on what I choose to photograph, when I am willing to carry the weight of an SLR and how many photos I take. Time and practice and mistakes has taught me what I like to photograph and the moments or subjects I treasure most. I like this sense of calm. Even more so that it is arising even as I notice my vision continuing to deteriorate. I want to take photos for as long as I am able and passionate. But this less anxious approach is more inline with my desire for minimalism and simplicity too.

I’ve been sorting through my unedited photos. My potential photos for my beloved blog numbered at over 6000. With this fear lifting and a commitment to my aesthetics and desire for quality over quantity, I have cut this file to 500 photos. It feels good.

In this process I came across some photos from an engagement party a few years ago. I emailed them to the couple somewhat apologetically as I criticised my old images. The reply I received from the groom giving great thanks for lifting his tough work day “more than I could know” made my criticism of the images fade away too. For I had actually done what I love to do. Made someone happy with my perspective of the world while enthusiastically exploring my way through it.

5 Responses
  1. September 12, 2012

    What a lovely post! I am so touched by that last paragraph..

    And what an achievement to cut down your photograph collection by so much….did it take and hours and days and weeks?

  2. September 12, 2012

    Congratulations on the cull. That seems a huge number to loose, I always enjoying looking at your photos. I am not sure I would be able to be so productive in loosing so many. Since starting my blog the number of photos I take has increased dramatically. My husband is quite good at getting me to review them on a regular basis and trying to keep the numbers down!

    Sarah x

  3. September 12, 2012

    My love, this post made me so happy! I’m so very glad that you have found calm and simplicity and let go of fear. Cutting down from 6000 to 500 sounds like a mammoth feat – well done!

  4. Debbie permalink
    September 13, 2012

    Good for you! I too have been pruning unnecessary/unimportant items from many aspects of my life recently. There is a great sense of calm to be found from acknowledging your own inner strength and true self and focusing on those things which are most important to you. Your photographs are lovely, and I am in awe of your determination and talent!

  5. September 16, 2012

    Oh this is filled with lovely reflections … the pursuit of minimalism can bring such a sense of peace and calm to unexpected parts of our lives.


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