everyone else is having babies
Change is happening and I’m working to adjust. The flood of thoughts and feelings are being addressed as part of my Project Mind Declutter.
We are surrounded by many couples having babies, getting pregnant and planning to embark on that journey. I’ve been privileged to attend 10 baby showers to date to celebrate their next chapter. Amidst my joy for them I feel many other emotions given we’re not at the same point in our lives. Concerns of how friendships evolve and survive with new priorities. Fears of having an empty dining table in the future. Wishing there were no judgements or assumptions of any woman, especially when the full story is so rarely made public. Struggling with my disabilities around fast moving kids, talking toddlers and fragile babies. An occasional tear.
Comfort from discussions with those who relate. Relishing my nurturing side as a loving wife, dog mum and good family member and friend. Free of guilt after asking my mum if she is ok not becoming a grandmother beside some of her peers. Feeling honoured when we are given Auntie and Uncle titles. Grateful that my husband and I are on the same page and communicate openly. Overcoming challenges of my own with determination and support. Acting on our priorities and pleasures.
While we all forge our own paths to happiness, may we always find opportunities to come together to share moments along the way.